Born Into Brothels 2004 [Oscar winning documentary].avi

I enjoy watching documentaries. it takes me into a world I have no idea is going on. with everything that goes on life we forget that in other parts of the world people are suffering and in certain situations that they have no way out of.
Oscar Winning 2004 documentary about Kids born into brothels, no hope for the future except prostitution unless you intervene like this photographer and journalist did. brought her own cameras and allowed these kids to take pictures of anything and anyone. Beautiful success story... one is in film school now, others got married and another studying here in the US..love happy endings. also look Born into Brothels reconnecting.


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Garden state mall shooting

Its a sad feeling when we see these tragic events happen in other states but its sad and terrfying when it happens close to home. I have been to this mall a thousand times never thought something like this would happen..its tooooo close to home and my stomach is in knots!! What i dont understand is where is the gunman!! Surveillance camera everywhere yet we dont know for sure if he left or  is still at the mall.. Media which i rarely believe.. But interview several witnesses who say they saw more than one person, a group walking around shooting in the air but not wanting to hurt anyone.. Police say he/she left yet they r still doing a store to store sweep and frisking everyone!! Hmm!! Makes me question is the gunman still there or is the police/government doing an exercise!! Dont know who to believe anymore!! And as im writing this i hear in the news they have the gunmans cellphone and they r holding eyewitness who witness what happen and dont want them talking to the press!! This is beyond crazy!!! Not a safe world!!

Risotto Pasta

WOW WOW WOW!! Its all i could say!! Simply impressed with myself. I LOVE pasta!! Restaurant pasta!! Wouldnt dare to try cooking it, until today!! Fried in a pan, than slightly boil in chicken broth with spices.. Pasta came out soooooo good!!! Than i had to make garlic cheesy bread!! Yes i blend parsley and garlic cloves n spread it on the bread n put it in the oven.. All together simply delicious!! 

April Fools in November ...WHO DOES THAT??!!

Haven't written in awhile but have my mind full of thoughts that need to go somewhere...out there..dont care who reads it or if its read..just releasing it will suffice. Venting out session: Haven't seen this couple in a while. mind you we have a sort of relationship that people would not see as a friendship but anyhow we remain friends or social media friends... I mean I have more friends on social media than I do in real life..crazy thought.. ok getting to my point. well she calls me last night to see if we could meet up before the family all go back home..they live about 3 hours away.. so I said sure why not..i haven't seen her or her family in awhile and im pleased she reaches out so I automatically said yes..didn't even think about it..like I usually do..i think about everything in depth..so we decided to meet Sunday today! we didn't set up a time..well if u say 11 or 12 and than say I will text u to let u know than to me its not a time..so I SLEPT..when I woke up.. I looked at my phone and it was 11 and she texted me at 9..i said sorry woke up now, what time you leaving..she responds 12-1..to me..im like hmmm..thats cutting it close, we have to shower, eat breakfast...poop..yes I said it!!..I need time...so I said we wont make it..blah blah see u next time...n she responds come on!!..me being the person I am looked at my husband and said lets go..while I shower u cook breakfast..and that's how it went...showered, ate while putting on makeup and clothes..rushed rushed, rushed..i HATE rushing..always feels like I missing something!! so as we r headed over there, I text her telling here we r on our way..and she doesn't respond..im like weird she is usually quick!! we made it!! I text her and she writes..I LEFT!..I tell my husband to text her husband...n I write..YOU LEFT WHERE!!..again no respond..so Im like maybe she went to the supermarket..so we say hello to the family..sat for about 10 mts..and I text her where r u?? I ask husband where did she go?? he doesn't answer..to myself this is weird..she responds I went home..i was tired, been here since Friday blah blah blah..i cared less to read..i was soooooooooooo disgusted..i wasn't even mad..just disgusted..like WHO DOES THAT!!.... shows excitement to see u and than BAM!!!..no show!!..I mean WHO DOES THAT!!she rang i didn't pick up..didn't want to b rude in front of her family even though she left me hanging. said goodbye to everyone and asked my husband...WHO DOES THAT??...i cant fathom in this little head of mine..why??? i will get over it..i mean its not that serious, its quite funny right now..as i reading what im writing.. oh wells life goes on and just had another colorful character act out a page in my book!!..so i didnt want to feel like a wasted a good outfit or makeup!! Come on we all have been there.. We decided to go food shopping!! Lol!! 

Day 1and Day 2

Well forgot yesterday..I worked than went to church n finally to.the supermarket...yesterday was a good day...didn't feel so bad bad...work was a breeze...now today oh Lord ..I am feeling it...detox to the max...my body feels achy .I'm tired .my head hurts...I'm hungry...thank God I didn't work today..so.took the day to pray n read...Yeap today not so.good...but I can do All things through Christ who strengthens me...

Day 0

Tomorrow or shall I say today I start a journey...a new me Will blossom in 21 days...I'm.scared anxious excited but feeling victorious already..I Will sacrifice all my body yearns for to humble myself before Gods presences...my faith will n can move mountains..for my family n myself...the victory Will b ours...I can do all thing through Christ who strengthens me

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Neutral browns

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I am not perfect...everyday is a different struggle...but I'm fighting for what is mines..tired of living this mediocre Christian life..I know there Is more to this...but it doesn't come with complaining, excuses, blaming others n looking at man. This requires sweat tears and blood..because the Christian walk its not for the weak...its for the warriors...the ones willing to stand for that they bel ieve. The ones willing to confront sin. The ones who pray fast and read their word....I want change...people want change in the church.... we need that holy spirit filled church that when u walk in...u already felt convicted because u know u did something wrong...we need worshippers who sing to God not looking for the praises of men.....we need anointed preachers who speak the truth and not be afraid of members leaving .we need an awakening of the spirits...we need a change..this is were my mind heart and soul have been...where is the true church of God?... It starts with us...

So i was reading Jonah 4, he couldn't believe how God can forgive and save such a pagan nation. He was angry and waited patiently for the destruction of Nineveh. it never came. the nation humbled themselves before God and in doing so they were spare from divine punishment. When we change our wills, God wills a change. When we choose to repent, God may choose to relent. Human logic questions fairness when evil is forgiven. but in so doing, it fails to see that if evil were not graciously forgiven, everyone would be destroyed. I am a sinner, everyday i fail but everyday i ask for forgiveness for the things i have done and the things i havent done. Many lessons we could learn from this chapter but the verse that stood out the most. Jonah 4:4 Then the Lord said, "is it right for you to be angry?"